For George by Lydia Hounat

FOR GEORGE

I-am-grateful-for-your-unidentifiable-object-eyes-plain-dark-brown-and-boring-because-they-express-nothing-and-I-cream-off-the-tongue-that-you’re-not-that-big-a-deal-but-for-two-years-you’ve-been-one-long-word-to-me-so-this-is-my-apology-for-loving-you-with-the-overwhelming-stress-you-find-in-London-Victoria-line-rush-hour-and-in-the-colour-of-carbonated-cranberry-lemonade-this-is-my-sorry-for-sexing-you-so-hard-so-good-that-you’d-paralyse-haemorrhage-stumble-weakly-smiling-and-this-is-the-open-door-I’m-leaving-you-because-I’m-as-bored-as-a-moth-ball-I’m-done-remembering-how-we’d-always-form-two-walls-with-fleshy-backs-like-a-door-hinge-and-bend-on-each-other-with-a-sweat-swarming-the-eyeballs-so-thick-we-thought-we’d-never-see-each-other-again-steam-tongued-out-for-my-honeycake-underwear-tangled-and-a-ripple-in-your-black-jeans-sounding-off-like-a-pigeon-giggle-I-recall-your-tears-blanking-the-pillowcases-the-smell-of-your-housemates’s-shit-and-d’angelo-singeing-the-car-seats-like-hearty-yummy-thick-soil-in-my-eardrums-and-you-“innocently”-fucking-up-women’s-lives-cheesing-us-out-like-some-great-emmendale-and-you-forever-coming-back-to-me-like-leftover-cheesecake-so-don’t-pretend-you’re-fine-because-you’ll-always-be-my-roadkill-stuffed-into-the-padding-of-my-bra-I’ll-always-be-caramelising-these-wounds-of-mine-and-savouring-the-emotional-blood-of-that-brown-sugar-album-and-laughing-at-how-you-made-pasta-for-all-the-throwaways-like-me-but-significance-is-the-paint-I’ve-brushed-to-my-nailbeds-and-my-daddy-would-be-proud-of-me-for-sticking-to-my-guns-even-if-it-meant-ejecting-my-dignity-from-the-F-drive-of-this-sad-life-and-yeah-I-am-grateful-for-you-like-I’m-grateful-for-bin-bags-because-they-carry-all-the-shit-I-don’t-want-in-my-house-anymore



Lydia Hounat is a British-Algerian artist from Manchester, England. She edits the poetry section at REALITY BEACH magazine and SOBER. zine. She is currently a Poet-in-Residence at Manchester Metropolitan University, and resides between Cornwall and London.

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